Left out

I have been feeling left out since I was in primary school. I was quite a loner back then. As I got into secondary school, I started to make more friends.  I have lots of friends at school, the friends whom I always hang out with, look up to. I am also the type of person who loves to gain acknowledgement, not really like an attention seeker. I just want people to notice my presence. 

 Up until now, I always felt being left out. The group of people whom I really love hang out with. Sometimes,  I don't feel like I belong to the crowd. I am sometimes not invited to some kind of events. I'm the one who have to invited myself.  How pathetic is that.  

 

Oh well, this is one of the bitter situation in my life. I accept them. Everyone has one right? 

Left, Right, forward, backward? Which route? Which path?

 Too many question marks for the post tittle? Sorry for that.  Okay, as you know, from my last post, I am a person who is done with school. Next, I have to move on to the next phase which is the College/University phase.

  Recently, I've been going to education fairs. So far this year, I've gone to three of them. I did received a  lot of brochures, prospectus of universities. I did not have the time to look through all of them yet. I have been concerning about this(the path I should take after school) since early this year. I even went to an open day at some institute.

  
  The question is have I really made up my mind? I am still uncertain. I do have certain options in mind.  The problem with me is I kept on thinking, what if I am not qualified? what if I don't like it?  how about the education cost?
I still have time to think about it AND for sure I need to think long and hard enough so that I won't be making a decision that I would  not regret for the rest of my life.

Merdeka?

  Hello there, it's been months. I should've update earlier.
 Recently, I've just ended things with SPM. My last paper was Biology on the 27th November 2012. We shouted 'Merdeka' a few times before we leave the school.
The Merdeka' feeling after SPM was not that much of hapiness. Well yes, I felt free, as if there're wings grew at my back and glad that it's all over. I just can't seem to believe that it's all over. After 5 years no 11 years of wearing school uniforms, waking up early in the morning, studying for school exams. No more man no more I tell you. How great that is. However, it's quite depressing that I'm not going to see 3 quarters of the people in the exam hall anymore. Maybe I will. Those who were quite close to me, Insya Allah, we will make time to see each other in the future.

   It is december 2012 already. The funny thing about it, when it was this time 2009, people were busy about the end of the world dec 2012, but you see people right now, acting as if nothing would happened. I don't believe it will end this december because I know no one knows when it will happened. Only Allah knows when, and when he said happen, it will happen.
That's kinda off topic isn't it?

So here I am, early in the morning right after the Subuh prayers, I straightly turned on my computer and started typing on the keyboard. I was actually thinking of going outside for a cycle around my neighbourhood, to feel the coolness of the morning and get some fresh air. I haven't been exercising for so long, storing fats all the long, all I did was study, ate, study, ate, and sleep. Now I think I have to keep healthy, not saying that I will jog everyday. No. I'm sooo not promising that.

Yeah, there's a lot of plans I had in my mind before SPM ended. I made a long list too. But I haven't done like a quarter of it. There's just so many things to do. Sometimes you don't know where to start. Updating my blog was one of the things I wrote on my list. A tick for that!

that's All, till then.

Cuteness plus LOLness

My Pledge

  Hello there, it's a typical Sunday evening.  The sad thing about today is, it's the last day of the mid term school holidays. I'm still in the holiday-relaxing-as if I don't have a homework to do mode.
For me, I didn't really manage my time well during these holidays especially for an SPM candidate, I should've been working my butts off for the Trials that is less than 7 weeks. I think.
   I haven't really had the realization or self-motivation to really strive for the Big exam. And for that, I need to write a little pledge.

  I Aliah Umairah bt Shamsoor Munawar promise to myself that starting for tomorrow onwards which is the beginning of the second semester, I need to reallyreally do at least a revision of the topics I've learned, execute all the tasks given to me, practice really hard for my ABRSM practical Piano exam grade 8 to achieve at least Merit, put all my heart out during my preparation for the Trials, I need to buck up! get back on track! Get a hold of myself! Reduce internet consumption per day. Last but not least, be a better person. 

 I might not be able to post any entry expecially the looong ones in this coming future. Wish me luck! Till then, Assalamualaikum.

That really unforgettable moment of my life.

    Hello, Hi, Bonjour. As always, I'm not a very updated person. It's June, my last post was on February. It's been months! It's the mid term school holidays now. The first week of holidays was really incredible. I went to Miri and Mulu which both places located in Sarawak. It's for the annual school trip/camping. To me, it's not like a camp at all, it's like a vacation with a really big family, which I won't get the opportunity to experience that as I have a really tiny teeny little family. What I meant by a BIG family is, my teachers and friends. It's the first time ever for me, getting the opportunity to travel with a friend, taking the flight with them. It's a whole different kind of feeling. Only 8 students including myself, joined the trip. There were about 14 to 15 teachers there. So there were more teachers than students. 


      The adventure started on a Sunday almost midnight. We had to gather at school at 11pm that sunday. We went to LCCT airport by bus from the school an hour later. We reached LCCT around 1.30 am. Our flight was at 7am Monday, so we had an ample time there at the airport. We were supposed to sleep/rest there, but I didn't cause I can't. Maybe I was too excited. The three of us, which were the seniors there, me, mimi and fauza. We went to the Coffee Beans, I bought myself a Vanilla Latte Ceylon Tea which was really heaven on earth. 


   Then, we just rest there, until we were about to check-in our luggages. That moment was when an unforgettable incident occur where the travel agent who were in charge of our trip, asked for our ICs. Only then, I remembered that I've forgotten to bring my IC! How awful that was! My teachers were like how could you forget the most important thing that you were supposed to bring? I started to become panic, couldn't sit quietly. Without my IC, I can't take the plane. They need prove for my tickets. And so, I was forced to call my mom whom was sleeping back at home at 4 am that time, I told her that I've forgotten to bring my IC, and asked her to checked whether my IC was there in my purse at home.  I had no choice,  but to asked my mom to bring my IC to the airport. I really didn't want to burden her especially when she was sleeping soundly at home.  


    Fortunately, she did went to the airport just to send me my IC that I've forgotten to bring along. It was at the very very last second  that needed to prepare to go to the boarding hall. Alhamdulillah, without her, I won't be able to make it to   Miri and Mulu, Sarawak. 
Thank you Mak, I love you so much. I promise that I will repay you someday. oh and thanks to my teachers who waited patiently for my IC to arrive. hehe.


 From that incident, I really really learned a lesson that is to always bring my IC or pasport whenever I'm going anywhere especially when I'm going somewhere far away from home. 
Now you know one of my weaknesses, and that is CARELESS!


  Oh, before I end this entry, I would like to clear something out. Actually this entry was supposed to be for me to write about my trip to Sarawak and how much fun I had there but on a second thought, I've uploaded 1 thousand plus photos on facebook divided into 4 albums. Most of the people had seen the pictures there and if were to write everything about the trip here, it would be a very very long-winded and a boring entry. So I thought about just to wrote a part of the trip that was veryvery unforgettable and important event that occur. 

me standing in front of a very breathtakingly beautiful view in Mulu, Sarawak near a place where we stay.

 

And this is a very retarded-looking photo of myself enjoying the blissful boat ride 'like a boss'. 

Me, being a Senior.

Hellohellohello. Are you excited? Cause I'm excited.. to post an entry. haha. I haven't update for quite some time. You have no idea how hectic is being a form 5 or shall I call senior. Yeah, I'm a senior. It feels so great to be one. You can walk, talk, laugh all you want when there's only juniors below you. You will tend to have the senior kind of power, conqueror. Muahaha. Nahh, I'm quite nice to my juniors. I respect them so they can respect me too. I feel like a hugee sister at school. Huge as in eldest, not size. Ouh forgot to mention, I'm placed in 5 Bina this year. 3 years of high-schooling I owned the title of Binaian's from 1 Bina, 4 Bina to 5 Bina. I'm glad actually, I was kind of a little expecting 5 Azam at first, but then I'm thankful to be 5 Bina with all my peeps there. 5 azam and Bina has no difference in IQ level or academics. Both of them are the top classes. That's pretty much about the beginning of my senior life. I'm going to cherish the last days of being a high schooler. And also my one and only goal for this year, STRAIGHT A's in SPM 2012. Amin.