Left out

I have been feeling left out since I was in primary school. I was quite a loner back then. As I got into secondary school, I started to make more friends.  I have lots of friends at school, the friends whom I always hang out with, look up to. I am also the type of person who loves to gain acknowledgement, not really like an attention seeker. I just want people to notice my presence. 

 Up until now, I always felt being left out. The group of people whom I really love hang out with. Sometimes,  I don't feel like I belong to the crowd. I am sometimes not invited to some kind of events. I'm the one who have to invited myself.  How pathetic is that.  

 

Oh well, this is one of the bitter situation in my life. I accept them. Everyone has one right? 

Left, Right, forward, backward? Which route? Which path?

 Too many question marks for the post tittle? Sorry for that.  Okay, as you know, from my last post, I am a person who is done with school. Next, I have to move on to the next phase which is the College/University phase.

  Recently, I've been going to education fairs. So far this year, I've gone to three of them. I did received a  lot of brochures, prospectus of universities. I did not have the time to look through all of them yet. I have been concerning about this(the path I should take after school) since early this year. I even went to an open day at some institute.

  
  The question is have I really made up my mind? I am still uncertain. I do have certain options in mind.  The problem with me is I kept on thinking, what if I am not qualified? what if I don't like it?  how about the education cost?
I still have time to think about it AND for sure I need to think long and hard enough so that I won't be making a decision that I would  not regret for the rest of my life.

Merdeka?

  Hello there, it's been months. I should've update earlier.
 Recently, I've just ended things with SPM. My last paper was Biology on the 27th November 2012. We shouted 'Merdeka' a few times before we leave the school.
The Merdeka' feeling after SPM was not that much of hapiness. Well yes, I felt free, as if there're wings grew at my back and glad that it's all over. I just can't seem to believe that it's all over. After 5 years no 11 years of wearing school uniforms, waking up early in the morning, studying for school exams. No more man no more I tell you. How great that is. However, it's quite depressing that I'm not going to see 3 quarters of the people in the exam hall anymore. Maybe I will. Those who were quite close to me, Insya Allah, we will make time to see each other in the future.

   It is december 2012 already. The funny thing about it, when it was this time 2009, people were busy about the end of the world dec 2012, but you see people right now, acting as if nothing would happened. I don't believe it will end this december because I know no one knows when it will happened. Only Allah knows when, and when he said happen, it will happen.
That's kinda off topic isn't it?

So here I am, early in the morning right after the Subuh prayers, I straightly turned on my computer and started typing on the keyboard. I was actually thinking of going outside for a cycle around my neighbourhood, to feel the coolness of the morning and get some fresh air. I haven't been exercising for so long, storing fats all the long, all I did was study, ate, study, ate, and sleep. Now I think I have to keep healthy, not saying that I will jog everyday. No. I'm sooo not promising that.

Yeah, there's a lot of plans I had in my mind before SPM ended. I made a long list too. But I haven't done like a quarter of it. There's just so many things to do. Sometimes you don't know where to start. Updating my blog was one of the things I wrote on my list. A tick for that!

that's All, till then.