First week of hols

Hey it's me mate! Long time huh. It's school holidays now, almost entering the second week. What I've been doing? Did I used my time wisely? or otherwise? haha.

As soon as school holidays started, I went for a school annual camping trip at Taman Negara, Pahang. It was one of the best camping trip I've ever went to. Worth 200 bucks. I admit, from the camp I came to have more appreciation towards nature.
The camp was for 3 days. I got home that night on Monday.
I slept for 11 and a half hours from 12 am until 11.30am. How exhausted I was after the camp. I didn't do anything much that day.
Homeandhome all day. It was my resting day after all the shizz.

The following day, Wednesday. The day I've been pretty much waiting for. ;D I went to Sunway Lagoon with my classmates. My class, 4 Bina had been planning since 2 weeks before school holidays started. My form teacher was there too, En Fairuz. He was really excited to go out with his dear students. Only less than a quater made it that day. How sad. But we had much fun there even though with only 9 of us including our teacher. It was an unforgattble trip with my beloved classmates, i hope we could do this again in the near future.

On Thursday, I went on a date with my two girlfriends, Adibah and Amirah. Adibah, came a long way from Terengganu. She's in KL now until saturday. We spent time watching a movie, bowling and shopping at one of the nearest shopping mall from mi casa. A greaaat day it was. I hope dibah will upload the photos soon. ^.<

Today. Woke up at 9. Had breakfast with my mom and my lil bro at a mamak place. Got home, turned on my computer and watch half episode of Secret Garden, fell asleep after that. I slept until 3.30pm. I don't know why am I sooo tired and sleepy all day. The next hour, I went downstairs to have my lunch and then continued watching City Hunter's latest episode.
I'll be going to JB tomorrow there'll be a relatives' wedding and less likely I might stopped by SG, but I haven't packed a single thang.

Alrite I have to go shower now and pack things for tomorrow. I'll be posting a new entry and InsyaAllah, if God's willing, I will do my first own vlogger after I got back on monday or tuesday. Till then.

Much love, Umai.

Ma own vlogger?

Hi, hello, Assalamualaikum. It's Sunday today. Sorry I haven't been updating my blog. It's not that I don't have time, I'm kinda lazyyy. hahah. that is kind of unacceptable rite? sorry for that again.
I'm currently having my mid terms exam. I still have another week. Do u know how much i hate it during exams. huhh. Everyone does. This week's subjects are all critical subjects. I'm having Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Add Maths. I hope I would not have difficulties with all the papers. Amin.
In about an hour, i'm suppose to study physics. So I'm taking the whole hour I have now updating my blog, twittering, youtubing and reading my friends' blogs. Recently, I've been watching Maria Elena's videos on Youtube. She's a very open-minded, funny, outgoing person. I really love her videos. All of them are sooo hillarious. Although they're a bit retarded and stuff but all of her videos has it's own message to it. And she kinda inspired me to do a vlog. Should I? I'm thinking of doing it. But I'm afraid I might sound like weird and awkward. I hate watching myself in videos. I sounded soo weird. But I still want to try to make a vlog. InsyaAllah, I'll make one during the school holidays. I have ample time to make an awesome one, but since i'm a first timer so it might not turned out awesomely great. I have my own flaws. ;D
Actually there's lots of stuff I've been planning to do. Tonnes of it tapi tak terbuat-buat. For example, i've planned to bake, making a new song cover, new composition, painting, drawing a potrait, making my own vlog, updating my picture albums, decorate my room, sleepover, finish reading my novels and others that i've forgotten.

So that's about it. I might be posting something interesting in the future. So till then. Adios. Lebewohl. Farvel!

Current updates and some twitter and tumblr

Hello, Hi and Assalamualaikum. I'm very sorry for not updating my blog for a long time. I've been busy. But sometimes, i'm kinda lazy to update or posts new entries. haha. As you can see, I've changed my blogger template to a simpler one.

So, How am I doing? I'm doing urmm, well, err, kinda, sorta, well, managable. I'm still actually struggling to cope up with things lately. With school homeworks, curiculums/extra activites at school, tests, exams, piano, clarinet, tuition. (biasalah, high schoolers) Well, u gotta do what u gotta do. Mid terms are around the corner. Less than a month. I have to do something extraodinary to improve my grades. Yeah, yeah, i'm in one of the top classes with a bunch of smartest smarty pants there. Lots of competition i tell you. But one question, have I start studying? well, err that, yup. a lil tiny weeny bit. I studied Physics just now. The subject that i'm worst at. Too much of formula going on here in my head. I did try to understand them, why this why that.
But I still think it's not enough, I need help from the experts, a Physics tutor who is capable of taking me to the real world of physics so that I could bear in mind, stick it in my brain. huhh.

Well enough about that, lately i always online my twitter account. I got addicted to twitter soo much. from 50 tweets to 360 and above now. I find twitter more interesting and addicting than facebook that is soooooo 2009. hahah. Meanwhile, I'm also addited to tumblr. Sorry blogger, no offense, i still love you. But tumblr! A newcomer! well not that new, I had my tublr account since last year. exactly last year, April 2010. At first, I made a tumblr account for me to write about that certain someone (like a diary)
but now, I've been following a few people, two of them are my friends and the other are from some random users. As i said just now, it's like a diary, but now i've been reblogging photos, not just any photos but mesmerizing, breathtaking photos from the other tumblr users. Since that, I discovered how much exciting, fun tumblr could actually be!

Is it fact or low-seld esteem?

Lately, I've been depressed. I would always turned to the pessimistic side of me. But sometimes, I really had this negative thinking inside of me. I think i'm such a loser and there's nothing i'm good at. I know, this is not good. Everyone said that u must be optimistic. But I tried, I was optimistic at first but then, i put my hopes up too high that makes me lost everything.
I know deep down inside that I have confidence in me but the reality have shown to me that I'm nothing.
For example, my academic/studies were not that bad, but at the same time I'm trying to balance myself by trying to be good at sports too. There only one sport i think that I'm good and would have the chance to excel which is voleyball. I really have a high interest in that particular sport. But u know, just having the interest is not enough, u have to train hard to be really super good at it. U know what? I've tried my best. I trained, came to every practice. But I'm still not in that level yet. I know it takes time and lots of effort. But one thing I know that I really have commitments. I really want it soo bad. These words from the coach, would let u down. But it's actually for your own good. It pushes you to work harder and be better.
That's just one of the example.
There's more actually things that I think I suck at. I don't know, but today, I think I'm such a loser. There's nothing I'm good at.

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hi there, it's been months since my last post. I'm so sorry for that. My life is quite hectic nowadays. It's the school holidays now. I just finished my first test. I admit that I didn't do my best. I'm not really prepared. As aspected, my results were just average. I got a C for physics, A- for add maths. That's one of the lowest grade i got.
I'm considered an average in my class as all my classmates are all bunch of smarty pants.

Ouh and I just came back from camping 2 days ago. It's was reallyreally one of those exhausting camp i've ever had. Until now, I'm still tired. I get sleepy all the time, today,yesterday and even rite now. But, i'm glad that I did go to the camp, as it was a really exciting, worth-keeping experience I've ever had. And i did overcome the fear of darkness that i had all this time. During the camp, the second night, I have to walk alone, ALONE in the quite, dark, bushy lil jungle for about 20 mins. I really hate being in the dark, i even sleep with the night light on. The camp was overall awesome! I had a greaaaaat experience.

The next day after camping, I went for a lil picnic with some of my closest friends. They were great! Some of them, just came back from boarding schools. And we spent time together, sharing stories about their new schools.
I was still tired after the camp that i slept at the musollah(surau) while waiting for my friends doinf their prayers.

And today, wednesday. It is a totally one of my laziest day. I have lots of stuff to be done. But i don't know, i'm always not in a mood to do anything today.
And i'm having a lil headache right now. I hope tomorrow will be better than today and I won't be as lazy as today.

Mon-day Bossanova

Hey people! It's monday. As usual, Monday blues... But it's not that bad though. Today's subject was Biology, Physics, maths and Add maths. I'm soo excited Biology was today. I had fun learning about Plasma membrane. Everyone was like soo bored but for me Biology is the coolest subject! I love it! Next was Physics, ermm, it was oookay.
After recess was Mod. Maths. Not bad. I love the fact that it's easier than add maths. It makes me more eager to calculate and solve all the problems in the workbook. From being pretty tired and sleepy, I became more energized.

And the last two periods was add maths. UGHH. every time i heard that 2 words, my brains started ordering me to close my eyes.
Out of 4 quetions, I could only solve 1! 1 out of 4.. I can't imagine what would i get for my first test.
But today's lesson was.. I could catch up pretty well. Even though I had a tough time solving add maths' quetions.
Luckily my seatmate, syu explained to me why this why that. I was like OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH. so That's what it was.
It's not really about the difficulties that we cannot do it, but it depends more on what we understand from that certain something.

at 1.10 pm the bell rung, but my class dismissed pretty late, 1.20pm.

This is my decision

Lately I've been very active at school. If possible, I would like to join and participate on all the activities that is held at school.
It's not only in school, I have music classes too. But it's something I love so I'm willing to do it even my schedule is kinda packed.
At school, I am very active in girl guides. I love and proud being one. I have to go through all the challenging tasks but fun at the same time. I enjoyed every moments i had during girl guides' camp and activities. I've finished doing the practical Permit Perkhemahan test which I have to organized my own camp and guide the other campers. It's not an easy task. The examiner was very strict. But from this camp, I think I've gained some leadership skills. Speaking about permit, it is 60% of the tasks to become a Queen's guide. I still have another 40-50 % to become a Queen's guide. I've made my decision, I will stop until permit because i think I've gone this far and it's qutie a remarkable experience in completing the tasks. Even though I will stop until here, doesn't mean that I won't participate in guiding activities anymore. I WILL and always until my last days of high school.
I did regret a bit about stopping but I think this is the right decision. I have lots more to focus on. My studies and music lessons especially.